Eh?

crazy crazy filipino class.
what is so necessary about memorizing everyones names in a class? yea i understand the fact that meeting people is great but i dont understand why it is catergorized in an assignment!! wouldnt it be better if we interacted instead of memorizing. yea it will take longer to meet the person but interaction will just lead to a longer and better standing relationship with your classmates. memorizing seems just to get things over with quick and fast. seriously who memorizes vocabulary and actually remembers five years later? duh...

well im just writing this because this class is starting to get on my nerves. funny how everyone said dont drop its worth it. yea we'll maybe if i was more filipino....

im so white washed.

heres to the best of the class!

school
the weather
san francisco
my house
my ankle(its sprained)
some of my roomtates
my lack of money
responsibilty
sleep
being awake
people
busy
this
world hunger
global warming
medical career
sadness
grief
happiness

im just tired. someone wake me up.
i hate being emo.

literally 3 times in my game last night. we won 3-0 and we made play offs!!!

other things...
interesting weekend. funny stories interesting outcomes and me getting kinda screwed. lol
interesting weekend planned. im coming home. most likely saturday night or sunday. ill be home most of the thanksgiving break!
petaks coming back too. he's leaving for Okinawa for 2 years so planning on having some good times before he goes ;-) jk

eh. im tired of typing. i WILL see all of you over break!

so itunes is on shuffle. i listen to it religiously. for some reason all the songs that it plays are depressing me. i dont like picking the songs. i like things random. but when its on random it plays songs that make me think, which im not a big fan of anymore. at least about things that are forgotten. i mean there is glimpses of Public Enemy pushin through to the list but that doesnt make it better. (you'd get it if you really listened to it) >:O (thats my angry face!!) so yea. so fuck you apple for making me feel like shit!!! o well. other than that Im Happy :}.

here's my intramural status.
Futbol Team- World No Stars we're 3-3
Basketball Team- Sexy Back we're 4-3

here's my school status.
All classes Passing with flying colors.

here's my relationship status.
Bitches Slapped - 146.47
Bitches that slapped me- 0
Chick worth the slap - 1

lol.

Halloween was sweet.
Went to that street.
Went to some chicks house.
Woke up and aced my Chinese test.

BYAAH!!!

ni hao ma?

I really hope you understand what you've done. I forgive you. But that doesnt make anything good.

I QUIT AMERICAN EAGLE!!!

any guesses of how?

two words....food poisoning.

you know what i love doing now?

killing bugs with my blow gun!!!

peace,love, compassion...

clouds make me very angry!!!
enjoy your precious precious sunlight oakley!!! while it still lasts....

on another note. im on summer vacay. anyone interested in entertaining me in anyway please do!
and i mean anything...3 months of nothing..YAY!

penis

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this sucks.

happy bday tom

I made a list.

# of reasons to hate- 68
# of reasons to like- 17

hmmm....interesting.

guess what?

its 4am

and im still up
why? CUZ ITS FREAKIN' SPRING BREAK!!! 06!! and i CAN!!!
DISNEYLAND HERE I COME!!

FUCK YOU!!
YOU DOUBLE-SIDED POO HEAD!!!

ENJOY LIFE!!

...please... :)

whose ready to drop out of school!!??
Ben is!!
College is overrated.
nuff said.

so yea im SICK!!! DAMNIT!!

my mom suggests that i go to the doctor because (exact words) "you might have bronchitis, then you'll get pneumonia, then you die." i love her so much. she has every reason to believe it too because i have been coughing for more than 4 months now. on and off. this week i was dying though. so i think i will be visiting the school nurse. yessss....

everything in else in my life = sucks

except you. yea you. not you! the other one. yea... thanks for making me smile.

I hate my life.

not really. i love it. most of it.

i think i have done everything that i could possibly do in this little house of mine. i have gone completely insane being stuck in here. theres good news though! that has forced me to get out. which has forced me to forget! which makes me better! the problem is i cant go out all day and all night long. i have to come back to this lonely hell hole. which puts me back the my crappy world. so i have resulted to X-TREME!! measures to pass my time. things that many people thought i would never do. i do. things that i said was stupid before. i do. and things that are just morally wrong. i do. i've met a lot of new people along the way. i've hung out with a lot of people that knocked sense into me and i've renewed old friendships that have been kind of pushed aside. theres still that one though...i try not to think of it. so maybe thats a good thing? i really have no idea. i take it day by day now.

on a lighter note. i went snowboarding! it was tres beau. i did alright. i ate it a few times but nothing like the first time i went. i kinda liked the first time better anyways. it was more happy you can say. although i had fun this time. probably the most fun i had in a long time. it was missing a vital piece. i hate talking about it. and i hate reminding myself of it. damnit!! but ne ways... it was great getting out and breathing a little. i needed to. i really don't know how she felt. i miss her.

i had my longest conversation last night with someone really unexpected since probably summer. but i liked it. it reminded me of the days of summer when everyone was at my house unexpectedly and we were all there ALL DAY. lol. pissing off my dad to the point where he didnt even care anymore. LMAO! o and playing poker on a air hockey table while listening to a radio that basically just got espanol. basketball while getting shot at. basketball while getting water ballons thrown at us. basketball where i let the girl win. sleeping. everyone sleeping! in one room!! bunk bed fun. stupid strobe light. those can make anyone look like some kind of demon! lawn chair discussions plus la costa....cant beat that except.. cheap soda and cheap pizza to end a night. GREAT AMERICA! omg. how i loved going there. the best part was it was paid for by the WOW card. i lost my wallet on stealth though. DAMN YOU STEALTH!!! feeling that fall of drop zone was easy to deal with because you got 5 of your best friends strapped in with you falling to their deaths as you are. q-zar wars. cinco!! cinco!! baskin robbins tuesdays. they were hell for me, everyone else liked it cuz they never worked there! discussions of what super hero is better and why. Yu-Gi-Oh tournaments with my little brothers deck. funny, if u got the blue eyes white dragon you would win automatically. lol. what about walking, before the licenses. Vintage was the spot. everyone had to come to vintage cause that's were everyone else was. and it was always xtra XTREME when wang made it out from the boondocks. jerm walking to my house at 8 in the morning and chillin until 10 at night. swimming at klims house. marco polo with his eye-open brother lol. tom screaming under water. o and theres movies. going to the movies was the most difficult because we never knew how to get there until we met alyssa, whose wonderful dad drove us. starry nights were always the best. sitting together and talking about the future and what girl was hot and whose gonna get the next video game system. o and night football games on a narrow street!! talking to girls on the phone for hours about guy problems. the best advice i gave was go with the flow. lol. it kinda worked. and my best friends were all there. especially alyssa. i don't think it would have been the same without her there. she broke our chain of no girls lol. and she became an honorary guy. figuratevely speaking. lol. summers without her wouldnt have been much of a summer in my view. you were there in all these memories. and you will always be. wow. once you get out of high school people swear that they would never miss it. that oakley is a joke and high school is overated. but in my opinion. i dont think i'll ever forget the Magnificent 7, and all its subdivisions although its been as high as Mag 20 lol. i dont think ill never not call Oakley my home. i just don't see it any way else. i can't wait for the summer. i just hope everything will be the same when it does come around. but there will actually be a few major changes. i.e. petak, alyssa, ?.... hopefully it won't change a lot though.

whoa..i just got caught up in the moment. lol. back to reality now. damn. too long to read.

it's been hard these past months. but the one thing i can honestly thank about it. is that i learned. i learned to follow your heart once it strikes. because once its gone. worlds change. but i honestly can't stay like this. no one deserves to be in this kind of situation. and i see that there is no future between us. it has gone. she may have not realized it or maybe that it just wooshed over her head. but i loved her. i love her. and that is why i can't go on with this. i want to remain friends. but i don't see that happening either. so many things have changed about her and about me. when i can't even talk to her or even see her. it is just awkward to even try. i desperately miss how we were. and i hate how we've become. if anyone knows us, they knew how inseperable we were. but time changes things and people move on. i've been forced to become someone that i do not want to become, and that is where i have to draw the line. my family and friends have always been my life, if all that changes because of this, its not worth pursuing. im sorry for bringing people into my personal life. but i do appreciate everyone that has helped me through this. i still need your support though. and to you...

it has been me and you for 3 years. you said i could call you whenever. but you lied. you said we would hang out. but you lied. you said you would listen to me. but you lied. you said you would never yell at me. but you lied. you said you would let me lean on you when im down. but you lied. you said i could cry to you when i needed. but you lied. you said you would always be there. but you lied. you said you would never leave. but you lied. you said things wouldn't change. but you lied. you said you were my best friend. but you lied. you said you loved me. but you lied...

i would be lying if i didnt say this...

i love you.